It was one evening, after a very stressful day that I put things in my mouth that should not have gone in there. I woke up this morning with remorse. The only consolation was that it was just one night. However, the remorse was like a bad hangover that I experienced in my youth in the way it made me feel emotionally. The question of why did I do it? Why did I let myself get caught up in the moment? Why did I not take control after having no control over a situation earlier in the day? It took me most of the morning to get over it. I resolved to make a list of things I could do next I am feeling blue after a stressful situation. The list will be something I will refer to when I get that feeling of needing comfort thinking that the comfort will come in the way my tongue feels when I eat something not on the plan.
The list includes a bike ride, a walk, a Wii game, reading an article, looking at old pictures, painting my nails, adding patches to my daughter’s vest, sitting on the glider on the deck, deciding where to hang some pictures in our picture-less master bedroom, meditating and thinking positive thoughts.
It is so easy to fall into old habits. I resolve to create new ones.